Novi početak
Sećam se da sam nekad bio srećan. To je bilo davno, doduše. Toliko davno da se čini kao da je to bio neki drugi život.
Na radiju je glupa muzika, ali ne mogu da uhvatim ni jednu bolju stanicu.
Ne znam ni o čemu da pišem, ali i to će doći, bitno je da sam ovde.
Moj drugar je juče rekao da se ceo život neprestano menjamo i da je to bitan proces. Da je najteže pobediti sebe ali da je to najbitnije.
Svaki početak je težak! Međutim, novi početak je izgleda još teži. Tu mislim na stvari koje si već započeo ali si stao. Sigurno, lakše je time što znaš da možeš da počneš, ali isto tako te još više prati to spoznaja da si ipak pao i da nisi uspeo da izguraš ono što si započeo. Naravno, krenuću opet, ali ništa ne može da mi garantuje da neću opet pasti. Štaviše, vrlo verovatno da opet neću uspeti. Nije to obeshrabrenost, to je čista statistika.
ali...
''If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs, and maybe your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery, isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance. Of how much you really want to do it. And you'll do it, despite rejection in the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods. And the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is. '' (Charles Bukowski)
